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Thursday, October 10, 2013

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I think I'm really so bad.. I tried to be good sometimes.. When will you stop BQ.. killing me inside out .. Sigh.. the moment you start going there, you bring us down, the moment you bring jas there, you bring her down, you and Nicole there , bring down friendship .. Without going there, everything will be plain and simple.. Future Is clearer.. You still don't understand.. Or maybe I don't, if you can oneday think back, before you start going there and start doing everything right and give some people your time. Everything in life won't be in a mess, your studies, your love life, your friendship, your future.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

:<

!!!! Every time got reason to go boat quay!!!

Hmmm

It's feels like such a long time since I have a sleep through out the night.. but still can't help thinking..

Everything is different since the day you began to left me, you have changed completely, it's not that I don't know you well enough, you have so many new guys friends and new people in your life now.. This makes me jealous , but I still like the simple you last time..

To me our relationship together is so special in a way I can never forget.. Maybe to you is just another same old thing that just pass, I know how to be content with what I got.

It's impossible to find your love back to me anymore from now because it's far too long and too much people revolving in your life right now.. I always try everyway to guide you back, to a place where you belong.

Amour vincit omnia.. I still believe , even how sad, how much hurt I got, or even lied to about everything.. I had never mind being a fool, or being someone's spare, because I was never in the first, within your heart. That's what really killing me..

Everyone wants a place in their special someone's heart..that's human I guess..even if we never wanted , seeing the one we care and love ones change into something they couldn't even fathom.

I don't know what is the meaning of you said is trying, maybe you tried in your own way I can't understand. But giving up on us is also giving up part of yourself. Don't lose yourself to guys you didn't even want to live old with ..

I don't know why am I still doing this, my mind was telling me not to, and my heart is doing it. One day if I was to leave , there will be no turning back. Because there's always chances to be given , I have no regrets to what I have done, only what I have not done .

In my life there's still one person, I regret having loved with, she's the one that makes me believe everything we can have together, in the end how she cheat on me or given up this for another guy which didn't last long. I never hate this woman anymore because It doesn't matter anymore.

I made promise to myself, I will not involve in drama anymore . This will only bring hurt to everyone, because there is no real happiness.

Smell , I care and love is still like always, maybe you don't know how to feel for me anymore, but if we continue to stay this way .. There will be no good ending , this time for either you or me . Waiting for you is no longer possible , because you showed only the new places and man that you met.

I hate to have all this feeling everyday .. I don't exist in your heart..

Sept 9th