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Friday, July 11, 2014

Sigh

Today I said something I shouldn't say to her, I felt so sad when all she think that I was that kind of person. She didn't know that I have already fall for her. That night I can vividly remember u mentioning my ex..I did not think of her.. I took a de route to work today, thinking if I could get you something..

Aunty keep complaining to me about so many things..I will rectify all this problems at work , we have one more new guys today, I have to train him and guide everyone during service. Today I have to do food ordering for next Monday and I don't even know what's happening at work yesterday. Today, I'm leading one part time , one new cook , one new assistant manager attach to kitchen , and one new junior sous chef, I wish I can solve so many problems.

I wish u can understand me..

I wish you can talk to me..

There's nothing much I can do..

For this past few days I wanted to look for you, I knew u went to wild oat, so I walk near there hoping if I can see you..but I keep thinking that u wouldn't want to see me, so I stayed around there for awhile. I know u are working the next day, I went to town alone wanted to look for you, but I was discourage..my brother told me he don't know if you wanted to see me..I went to the bar alone..I wanted to be alone..my good friend Cecil and her friend mayi came down to look for me..we had some drinks..end of the day I felt so miserable and drunk..

I really don't know what to do..

There's so much and so many things happening I wanted to solve and help so many people..but I just can't help myself..