Feeling sick

 

Seems like actually I feel it's feeling from bad to worst..

Having those thoughts, about you..

TSH test, spirometry test, psychiatric test..

 

Wish you didn't leave..

Post...

Walked pass there day 2.. 

It seems like taking lots of courage to just walk pass there to see you..

Take care don't get drunk.. Don't get so emo like always.. Don't always think so much .. Take a step at a time .. Don't always get so busy .. MH

I guess it's the same

Sometimes I really have to wonder why.. The ending it's always somewhat the same..the hope and everything else, the last time u said to me, you would wear this dress for me..to a wedding dinner but it never happen..because you didn't turn up and we broke up.. In the past I bought this long dress for her , but I didn't get a chance to see her wear..

Most of the time it's after army, and you are gone.. after all I still have 5 more years to go.. 

I'm really tired..I'm afraid it's gonna be a long break for me soon .. Because.. Somehow.. I'm also afraid I won't be here for long.. Tomorrow is my next medical appointment. I don't 

 knowif I should tell doctor about more..

Back off eventually in order to decide what's best for me..is this all for me ? 

Wish u were here..