Falling :'(

I also don't know why I become like this..maybe I just want your attention.

Bad things keep pouring into my mind..

:'(

I tried to watch this movie letters to Juliet , but I tear even more.. Picture of us keep running in my mind..the guy that doesn't have time for his girl all the time, all that is abt work he is on,..I'm afraid that we can't be together in the future..

In the end you told me, I can never understand your work. 

Can you try to understand me abit? How I feel all this time? I miss you so much! But your phone never leave your hand for an hour..even while having dinner Tgt . :(

Aren't we suppose to spend every precious time Tgt ? :'(

I'm really sorry that I could no longer understand why is this happening.

I'm sorry it is my fault that I get angry at you.

I'm sorry that I'm breaking down.. 

I'm sorry that I'm always making you having a bad day now..

Now that I'm like this, it's hard for me to bring out the happiness that u always wanted. 

Maybe I might even be happy for you that your stress that I bring to you is over.

It break my heart to see myself become like this . :'(

I just wanna wait to have dinner with you

My first proper meal for 3 days..I wanna send letter..

We went out for a date.. I really don't know what this is anymore..I did not spend time Tgt..this is not what we are suppose to be..I love who you are..

:'(

Attention, affection, love and commitment. :'(

:'( this is the first time I felt so heartbroken while smiling to my colleague.. 

I miss the day when both of us can really spend time together...

I hope u can take time to do all your stuff ..and we can go back like how we use to laugh and be so sweet ..

Now maybe we can only miss those sweet memories ..

:'( when lily still teach me how to make a proposal and thought of how I can make things happen .. :'( a few days apart and now this is ..

All the heartache feels the same..in the heart..

Mine ...

You would always be on your phone, sometimes for you wouldn't even concentrate on what we are talking about. You said I don't understand, slowly as time pass, you began to stay till late in your office, at first I would wait for you, we will always go our for supper and have our little time spend together, but as time pass, you would always tell me that you are very tired.. We have lesser time spend together.. It's partly my fault to always go out drink with my friend, as time pass, when u ended work, you start going out with your friends for drinking session, your colleague.. You wouldn't come with me, it's very tiring for you I know, I appreciate your afford, but where do I stand for most of the time,you would be with your friend first then me... I felt so heartbroken, at first you told me "I thought you will understand, why won't understand my job". 

How to I understand? Maybe it's me that always don't try to understand your job load and stress . I'm always drunk when you look for me, u feel so angry and sad too. But do you know that most of the time when I'm drunk till like this and we quarrel, is that you wasn't with me from the start, you always came from somewhere else then to me.. Maybe it's something good or sad.. Yesterday I felt so heartbroken .. or maybe this whole week... if you can understand .. I can ony feel that we are drifting apart, I feel that you don't really love me so much.. 

On a rainy night, I can only send you to your friend, you look at your phone the last time and told me "it's going to 12am , I need to go up le , reach home msg me." You rush to your good pal and friends...your eye didn't even turn to look at me... It started raining hard on me...Inside of me it's just like the rain..

I know that you are going out, I just try my luck... It's your freedom that I try not to intervene with... But .......

I can suddenly remember this feeling... Or should I ... :( I'm really :'( 

Or it's just my complaint. Maybe I'm too much ..

I still loves you smelly.

:)

Rabbit that stays in the moon always looking at that only star..