I can't pass myself in this trap... Maybe it's the attention and love i seek, Why am i becoming a burden or stress... i dont know how to bring happiness to others and understand others anymore because i cant even bring myself to happiness and understand myself.. i felt so lonely... really.. is it best to keep everything within myself ? i complain abt the past and bring up the past.. i wanted spend my time with people.. i got angry on the inside sometimes.. but after awhile.. it grew into negative thinking.. i hate myself sometimes.. but i wanted to love myself , i wanted to be happy for most of the time.. but i felt so sad on the inside.. i felt so sad.. i am really happy and contented i wanted to do so much things and try everything i could during that time... tt was the time it erase of those those past.. i so much wanted to do everything right .. but i failed everytime i tried.. the more i pick up myself the more failure i got.. i so much need support ... i tried to do things right everytime.. but deep down inside of me... im beginning to lose myself.. i want those hope to come true... but its just within me... i felt really so bad... i wanted to spend time we miss out.. but my thoughts... i dont know how .. im just so sorry im struggling so hard inside myself inside of me... im struggling so hard... but my words.. keep hurting you.. my thoughts keep giving you so much stress and unhappiness.. i really dont want you to bring your work unhappiness into me... this way i cant manage myself on the inside.. i will make you feel angry too.. but i dont want all this to happen... i just want us to be like the past where we can talk more with you less stressful and when you will say sorry when you get angry.. i love the way you are in the past because tt time i felt so loved and got all the care you got... i felt really really happy i can even smile myself to bed.