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IzZit maybe the past break up was all the same??

I remember the first u said, usually I will always bring you out to drink and anywhere..tts why now u know how to drink, of coz there were up and down in this relationship, I remember how we shouted at each other behind the ntuc at tampines..we were young at the time, anywhere will be fun ..the underwater world..but when I go enlisted to the army..you left..tts the saddest day of my life..booking out to see you and his photo..Tt day I wish you happiness..it took years for me to forget all this..7 years later we are still friend..it's kinda of wired for you to say sorry to me abt the past..

Later in years, I met this woman..I tot she was a kind person ..although she was sometimes..how I met this woman? We meet up in a group of game for gathering ..we called each other more often then oneday she ask if we could be together, I tot we could give it a try..but until later she reveal to me that she's still married..and a young mother..it was kind of hard to accept of coz I have to ask her then why she still wan all this ? We still go on dating for few months until I realize it was really a sin ..a very bad sin for me to be with a married person..and I found out that she has met another new person other then me..of coz I feel sad and kinda cheated I learnt my lesson..I hate this person for a very long time..in the end I decide that I have no longer have feeling for this person I don't even hate her, but instead I feel that I'm in wrong..I should not go with that..I hope god will one day forgive me..

Then when this girl came in into my life, she was a part time server at the time..we work in the same place for almost a year but I didn't really talk to her as much until one day, I borrowed a lighter from her and I took it home as usual..she msg me in the Facebook and there we started to talk..she show concern about me..I guess I'm actually quite weak in the body..I was having a Fever when I'm at work..as days pass we got together..there's many places we went to..but in the end, she asked for a break due to many reason..I'm so sad I broke down in tears Tt day, as day passes I realize that actually she is seeing someone else..my friend showed me their photo and day taken..during Tt period I was really heartbroken ..but she came back to me after that..I tot we could be together again..in the end..a new guy show up and I didn't know that they were tgt again ..I felt that so much I was being hidden from..time to time..nothing much was being made known to me..

Now that I'm with this special girl, even before we were together, I tot I could always do something for her or maybe I felt in love with her..but I didn't really see it, she was funny and she speaks straight from her head , she doesn't lie..well tts what I like about her..as time pass I guess we can really get along well, but there's something about her is that she likes girl..i tot we could just let things go naturally..most of the time she would talk about her past and I really like to listen and know more about her..but Tt day we were both drunk and things maybe got kinda bad..she was really angry with me and didn't talk to me for one whole week..everyday I would think what have I done but I guess maybe it's abit of mutual at first ? But I'm still really sad, I travel to places where we have been to recall the past , Tt week I miss you so much and I'm really lost..i spend most of my days walking, to pub alone , to bugis, to steamboat, to the first place where we met..and Tt day u finally talk to me. I'm so glad that day , because we have cleared things up abit, and also u gave me this chance..

Now that we have problem like this, during this cool off period I guess I will only love you more..I see that changes need to be made if we are to be together..first it's me..maybe sometimes I need to give u some space, a space where u can do your personal things , a space that u can think for yourself, a space when u can catch up with your friends and family. 

But there's something , you need to tell me if there's a problem between us, u need to let me know right? Most of the time you have been hiding your inner most feeling about me..I can feel it, u only tell me the good words or try to use good words to translate, if there's a day that come u hope u will tell your partner all your problems or somehow share your stress together..this is why we are together...smile and be happy . Baby I'm sorry for making you sad all this time..