As long as you are really happy.

I just want you to be better

Just let go of those places and new people, knowing them and drinking everyday there will only complicate your life more. I can't stop you anymore .. Small circle of friends that will always come to you will keep your life simple and happier in a way you never thought it will .. 

I can feel inside you are empty with laughter on the outside .

Why do I have to go through this alone again...for so many night.. :( I just can't take if.. I hope to sleep and never wake up again....

Why do I still hope u will catch my fall till now :(

:(

Seeing your favourite mug makes me think of my oscar and your cookie mug. I broke my mug and u said we can always go back USS to buy a new one. But most of the time , you doesn't want to spend time with me. Even the beer buffet one space is for you, even today you are invited ..but where were you :( 

I can still remember how I waited for u everynight downstairs your house..but u never came back tt night..how you scolded me in the morning..I beg u and all.. You have change so much and not the person I used to know anymore.. This time I felt it in my heart so deep..that you are not trying anymore.. If you really have the heart for me, that night you wouldn't have forget about coming back home to our house..I've waited for you but to only receive a call from you telling me , that you forgot to come back ..all this really sadden and broke me down so much..will you mend all this back ? :(

Am I doing everything wrong :(

loving you always

Smelly can you stop going to drink so much already mah? Do you know ever since you start going boat quay so frequently ,things is getting from bad to worst? Your bill , your work , our relationship , friendship all and all .. You said they are good people , yes I can agree with you but how about the time you spend? Most of the time was with them almost everynight.. You said give u sometime, I waited almost everynight for you , knowing you are out there with your friends..everyday using your favorite purple cup and all the clothes in the wardrobe waiting for you to come back..you said I'm forcing you , but if you really want us to be better than before time spend more together is Us together hanging out alone or with others..I try so hard to get your attention away from your friends and drinking habit again. You told me once about hating the lifestyle of drinking till morning again, and don't wanna have nightlife anymore in the future..for better future. But do u see what has happen now? I guess I have become the person that became the most you don't want to see the most and not love anymore.. There's so much struggle between us, I try to mend everything back to pieces alone..I'm fighting and struggling so hard inside of me all this is for us and things you told me.. Now that you have new friends and new affection for them.. How about those you cherish? Even if there is new guy out there is it worth it for all that you have work through? Inside of you, you said everything is dying..it's all in your mind. Nothing is dying and nothing changes except you.. You can come back and do everything you want and all together again.. Drinking with friends everynight will only give u short term of happiness and also drag those bad memories into your life .. Who you wanna give all yours is in you.

I have been thinking through all this and everything, even if I try it will be meaningless , it's has to be you that try to. I said so many things to you then and now, all this is trying to help us, or maybe I fail to..or I don't have the ability anymore..but remember one thing okay smelly? I'm still waiting for you and if you decided to leave , that will be for good because things will not be the same . I still have high hope for us and everything about you. I'll be waiting for you, don't break my heart anymore . I love you .