loving you always

Smelly can you stop going to drink so much already mah? Do you know ever since you start going boat quay so frequently ,things is getting from bad to worst? Your bill , your work , our relationship , friendship all and all .. You said they are good people , yes I can agree with you but how about the time you spend? Most of the time was with them almost everynight.. You said give u sometime, I waited almost everynight for you , knowing you are out there with your friends..everyday using your favorite purple cup and all the clothes in the wardrobe waiting for you to come back..you said I'm forcing you , but if you really want us to be better than before time spend more together is Us together hanging out alone or with others..I try so hard to get your attention away from your friends and drinking habit again. You told me once about hating the lifestyle of drinking till morning again, and don't wanna have nightlife anymore in the future..for better future. But do u see what has happen now? I guess I have become the person that became the most you don't want to see the most and not love anymore.. There's so much struggle between us, I try to mend everything back to pieces alone..I'm fighting and struggling so hard inside of me all this is for us and things you told me.. Now that you have new friends and new affection for them.. How about those you cherish? Even if there is new guy out there is it worth it for all that you have work through? Inside of you, you said everything is dying..it's all in your mind. Nothing is dying and nothing changes except you.. You can come back and do everything you want and all together again.. Drinking with friends everynight will only give u short term of happiness and also drag those bad memories into your life .. Who you wanna give all yours is in you.

I have been thinking through all this and everything, even if I try it will be meaningless , it's has to be you that try to. I said so many things to you then and now, all this is trying to help us, or maybe I fail to..or I don't have the ability anymore..but remember one thing okay smelly? I'm still waiting for you and if you decided to leave , that will be for good because things will not be the same . I still have high hope for us and everything about you. I'll be waiting for you, don't break my heart anymore . I love you .