Actually today I didn't even go out, i was worried abt you working till so late , so I tell u Tt I pass by Tpy so I can buy lame snack for u.. Today I realize how much you love Tt person in the past.. 

sorry

I am a failure in everything..

Can you don't go Thailand? Cannot lah,tickets already bought..

Why took so long to pick the the phone ? 

You are so smelly..

Today I'm tired ,I'm going home after this..

You take bus, I take train ..

While we are talking you looking at Facebook..

Now I off my phone alewady you don't want to talk,, CCb you trying to make me angry after my long day at work .. You start throwing vulgarity at me ..what you want to talk abt say now lah..

Before meeting you, ( smelly, next time don't hide your feeling anymore okay? If you got things want to say but don't know how to say just write your feeling in a letter and tell me okay? ) today, nah smell give u flower makes u happy!! 

Last time I felt this way, I complaint.. I felt the you is better now because you never go drink always and good girl, I like, but you become short temper need to strike balance between work and life.. 

I send you home okay? It's still early can take bus home.. (Up to you)..

I want to be alone today..

Smelly where are you, go take bus home now..

Okay okay.. :( i go cross the road .. (I miss you)

Slowly walking ( ah the key )

I'm walking back 2 bus stop ... 

I want to pass you office key..

Why you always never listen to me! Why Everytime you wan to make me fucking angry .. When I tot we can be Tgt then you do all this kind of thing.. 

I can't pass myself in this trap... Maybe it's the attention and love i seek, Why am i becoming a burden or stress... i dont know how to bring happiness to others and understand others anymore because i cant even bring myself to happiness and understand myself.. i felt so lonely... really.. is it best to keep everything within myself ? i complain abt the past and bring up the past.. i wanted spend my time with people.. i got angry on the inside sometimes.. but after awhile.. it grew into negative thinking.. i hate myself sometimes.. but i wanted to love myself , i wanted to be happy for most of the time.. but i felt so sad on the inside.. i felt so sad.. i am really happy and contented i wanted to do so much things and try everything i could during that time... tt was the time it erase of those those past.. i so much wanted to do everything right .. but i failed everytime i tried.. the more i pick up myself the more failure i got.. i so much need support ... i tried to do things right everytime.. but deep down inside of me... im beginning to lose myself.. i want those hope to come true... but its just within me... i felt really so bad... i wanted to spend time we miss out.. but my thoughts... i dont know how .. im just so sorry im struggling so hard inside myself inside of me... im struggling so hard... but my words.. keep hurting you.. my thoughts keep giving you so much stress and unhappiness.. i really dont want you to bring your work unhappiness into me... this way i cant manage myself on the inside.. i will make you feel angry too.. but i dont want all this to happen... i just want us to be like the past where we can talk more with you less stressful and when you will say sorry when you get angry.. i love the way you are in the past because tt time i felt so loved and got all the care you got... i felt really really happy i can even smile myself to bed.

Just a thought

I don't know if you know, ever since you got this job , sometimes or a few nights I was waiting for you to have dinner Tgt, but end up I go to bed empty stomach.. I know it's a long day for you at work ..sometimes I tried to help you at work, because you told me even zen can accompany jas for outlet..I tried so hard you didn't understand..I just got into a new working environment and I gotta work 11hrs a day..and I really wanted to spend time with you..I wanted to earn more money for us..as time pass.. I'm slowly giving up..I see our future with family with kids and everything..but we , our romantic time spend Tgt did not last..sometimes I just want you to put me as piority ..I wanted to do so much..I wanted you to give

Me motivation and goals for our future..then slowly I began to give up and slowly I give up on my job and everything..I have no more motivation in life..i put you first before everything else..but you never tried to understands and talk to me...everyday you would tell me abt your promoter..I even tried to know some of them and told them I'm your boyfriend and helping you..do you know how much I was hurt inside..sometimes I wanted to get a little more care and concern from you..slowly I find my cousin they all..Everytime when I'm drink it's because I'm so sad abt our relationship..I wanted to work everything out..I'm so tired at work ..I wanted to help you sometimes..but Everytime you you got so much into your phone when being with me , I got so much upset..I didn't want to find anyone to talk to..I tried to play games and try to get myself distracts from..I wanted you to change job it's because I want you to be less stressful and happier..you are always angry at things ..do you remember when you work at oe how happy you were? And Everytime you would make time for us..I wanted you to study well and get a job tt isn't so stressful for you..I didn't want to see you going to the doctor so often.. Sometimes it makes me so sad to see everything becoming like this ..I really tried my best for everything I can give you.. You are someone I can spend a lifetime with really..we can talk so much things and disturb each other so much..we are like husband and wife, best comedy buddy , and cute couple.. This is what makes is Tgt.. :( I'm getting drunk and said so many nasty things because I'm so sad inside..i failed to make this relationship work..not only I'm sad abt this..I'm also disappointed in myself..I wanted to get drunk and forget everything..and in the day I wanted to try my best for everything ..it's a struggle in me..my career has been a failure, my financial has been a failure, even my love life is an failure..I so much wanted everything to work out.. :( even my own family is quite a failure to me..I don't feel love from my dad, because he is always not around we felt like stranger, my career isn't working out well, my love

Life tt I always yearn for isn't working out..sometimes I didn't tell you my problem because I don't want you to be stress over my life.. I really tried so hard inside and outside :( smell I'm sorry ..but I still loves you.. I'm just a failure.. I'm really sorry..i just wanted a perfect family.. 

I miss the old you..

Sometimes in the past, you have been so frustrated at work, you will bring them into our relationship .. I hope in the future even if it's not us being Tgt. You can try to put your work behind and spend time with your love ones.. During family dinner Tgt, just switch your phone to silence and have peaceful dinner with your boyfriend or husband next time. During your date out, don't leave him waiting for you on the phone for hours. Always give and take , sometimes you need to have more patience . Having more patience and less angry at things, will make you a happier person. Avoid texting too many guys friends, this will also spoil your relationship . Sometimes it's a good thing to check on your partners phone . Try to be understanding about your partners doing.. Most of all spend more times with your love one , career come second.. The you right now isn't the one i used to know ..slowly I began to understand you lesser and lesser each day..I know someday this continues..we will become even stranger..

I love you from the start, I told you from the start I will love you more each day, but slowly after you got commited to this job, we drift so far apart, I felt so much neglected tt time, i felt like I wasn't any important to you, because even if we were going out or having dinner with family, you will just left for awhile and be on your phone with your work. I got angry and so sad with you, eventually you left me..after you left me..things start to change..the man and people that change you.. I tried so hard and so much to chase after you behind you, all that you didn't know..your heart died on us, what's left is me trying to fix back everything ..everyday and everynight I felt so sad , my heartache.. All I want is you to understand how much I want us to workout and not giving up.. That day you said to me abt me acting like I wan him now.. You broke my heart tt very moment my tears fall while in the train..My decision was for You and Us.. During tt time I think through and ask around so much , you didn't know..I tried to make a firm decision so that you can continue your studies, your work, and I can work hard Tgt..but all that seems to slowly disappear..me and you just lost our path..

I love you, the first time u plan for me how much to save and encourage me to pay the debt and start saving for out future..it work out for tt two month..I love the way you are..I love you for caring so much for me, I love you for putting in so much effort and thinking for us , I love you for teaching me so much thing ,.. But now i love the old you so much , I wish and pray that you can go back to your old self.. I cried so many nights...but i still hate myself sometimes for caring for you so much.. 

:(

本来是和你一起在cinema 看的..

The voucher you passed to me and said we can go watch this movie..i remember for so many nights you work till so late..we didn't even have time for dinner at night..because you were too tired..